It’s my 2nd day in school and I only had about 3 hours of sleep each day…OMG!!! What did I get myself into ?! HAHA! Ok it wasn’t because of school that I sleep late. Shall catch an early rest today after meeting up with Paul at Old School Delights at Upper Thomson Road.

When will Apple release the iPhone 4 white version ?! OMG! I feel so irritated that I don’t have the cam whoring function I’ve left behind since army.

Come this Thursday, it’ll be my PAY DAY!!! Hopefully…really HOPEFULLY SAF pays me the full sum without any deductions of whatsoever. Really hate to have unfinished business with SAF. It’s like take pink I.C and get the out ASAP!

Anyway…currently doing nothing but stoning…Arrived damn early for class and the classroom is not even opened. =/

I want to start my actual life soon! Oh btw my class is only 10 pax size but oh well, it’s a preparatory course. When the actual course starts in Jan, I bet and really hope there’s more peeps. OMG When I start school again in Jan, I shall begin my countdown to Switzerland !!! =]

I just feel so stupid right now…The only thing to look forward to is school starting on Mon.

You know all along I thought I was the one who was at fault. I blamed myself for what happened between us. But after last night, when you messaged me, the way you reacted as if nothing happened between us. The fact that you had a new number, you didn’t inform me about it. The fact that you just swoop back into my life asking me to hang out for lunch in school. The fact that you were the one who stopped contacting me.

It just made me realized, you were just out to play me out. I fell for it once because I was naive to believe you. I fell for it twice because I had hope. If I were to fall for it again, I might as well just jump down a building, because it only meant that I was meant to be cheated by you through my life and I would rather die than to go through any more of your shit.

To be very honest, I really wanted things between us to resolve on a better note rather than this way. But I guess, it will not happened. But then, who’s to say, the future is hard to tell. I do still hope things between us could end in much better note. But for now, I just really don’t wish to hear from you or see you in school at all.

Because I’m just damn tired of carrying this hope that things might turn out better between us. Let’s just say, let nature take its course.

Only thing I know is when I’m leaving for Switzerland next year, I hope to see you there to send me off. Because I want to be able to tell you, I’m finally over you and that the wounds have already healed and that we’re still friends. That’s my only hope for the future between us.

My love for you was definitely deep and meaningless… You hit me where it hurts the most. I’m not going to blame you anymore. Because I feel it’s better that I take up this as my own mistake to open my heart to you within such a short period of time. To expect an adult relationship where we could both talk things out. But I guess you’re just not easily contented with someone like me.

Take care. I see you around in school definitely and I would smile, because thanks to you, I’m a much stronger person. =]

Damn..it seemed to be my dream time table…HAHA! So darn busy !! WEEEE!!! Ok now for part time job !!!

I, I don’t know why I miss you so much
Yeah I, I don’t know why I still feel your touch
You, you left me feeling high and dry
With nothing, nothing but the question why

Yeah you, I guess you had another direction
And leaving me with nothing but a dead connection

Chorus:
If you call me today
I’ll say that I’m fine
But I bet you can tell by the tone of my voice
It’s just a lie
You knew what you had
You still walked away leaving me in this mess
My love for you is deep and meaningless

You, you knew what you were doing to me
And I, I guess I was too blind to see
Well you hit where it hurt and you fooled me so bad
But I’d do it again to relive what we had
(Damn that’s sad)

There are many things left to remind me
Of a love that I just can’t leave behind me

Chorus (Repeat)

I’ve always been a huge fan of soundtracks by Hans Zimmer and other famous composers like John Williams and James Horner.

I like the way some of those pieces which they wrote that carries a significant amount of feelings with it. For e.g Iris and Jasper by Hans Zimmer from The Holiday OST. Just the intro itself carries me forward. 

It has this wonderfully sad emotion to it. It’s not entirely EMO EMO.

Damn my mood just got spoilt by a bloody mouse in my room…I’ve a freaking mickey mouse in my room!!! ARGH!!!!

It’s ok to be alone. =]

Life shall start afresh as a new chapter unfolds itself. School. Volunteer Work. Part Time Job. Friends. Family. 

Honestly, brain is at a constant war with the heart but oh well. Like they say time heals all wounds. The words from a particular scene in “The Holiday” hits me time and again. Reminding me the fact that all these will fade overtime, however long it may take it definitely will with time.

Classic song that describes that very someone.

Remember me this way.